So I will write about me as it relates to you and your healing journey. Because, after all, that’s what prompted you to visit this site in the first place. I’ll write in the first person, and hope that you will relate as if it were yourself you are reading about.
I specialize in Quantum Touch which is a gentle healing modality based on sending life force energy (ie: LOVE) to the area in need of receiving it.
I have learned how to channel or access this energy, which is also known as chi, prana, in Polynesian – mana, Chinese – qi, German – od, Hebrew – ruah, Islamic and Sufic – ruh…in fact, there are something like 65+ different words which mean “life force energy”.
Every healer arrives at their healing “modality” niche via different routes. These are endless. They include massage therapy, Reiki, Acupuncture, Chi gong, Aromatherapy, Sound frequency healing, Past life regression, Tarot, etc. These all help to remove energetic blockages in your body which, if left to fester long enough, can manifest as physical symptoms.
I arrived to Quantum Touch via Shamanism. My benefactor or teacher is a Shaman. Therefore I approach an imbalance in the body, whether it be emotional or physical, by understanding that there is a spiritual cause for it. While Quantum Touch works beautifully with the actual physical pain, in order for the healing to last, I would “prescribe” (a Western medicine term) that the client should first commit to their own healing. My one-time, 6-time, or 20-time healing session(s) will only provide a breakthrough, or facilitate a growth sprout in your own capacity to heal yourself. I take full responsibility for my healing, as I encourage you to do.
While many will read the above paragraph and immediately think it makes sense and is logical, it is easier said than done. Shamanism is not always “gentle” like Quantum Touch. It involves doing inner work. So this website is reflective of my inner work which I’ve done for the past 35 years. Releasing a negative energy block for good involves deep internal figuring out. Committing to your own healing is a formidable task, but the rewards are immeasurable. I found that on the way to breakthroughs, I had to keep shattering my ego over and over again. I had to keep killing outdated parts of myself in order to make space for love to enter.
“I said: what about my eyes?
He said: Keep them on the road.
I said: What about my passion?
He said: Keep it burning.
I said: What about my heart?
He said: Tell me what you hold inside it?
I said: Pain and sorrow.
He said: Stay with it. The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
― Rumi
I have been in emotionally abusive relationships where I was putting all the blame on the other person. To shatter my ego, I had to face the fact that I chose to be in the relationship to learn whatever lesson I had to learn. Some would rather stay in the relationship, blame the other partner, become the victim, (and many other escape routes) rather than to look inside themselves – at their own wounds which prodded them to become a victim over and over again because of their own subconscious choices.
I have stayed in the structured “comfort” of following what society expects of me. In order
to shatter my ego, I’ve had to understand what makes me tick, rather than what makes other tick. I’ve had to look deep inside and understand how much power I have given away to others, because I’ve “learned” that someone else is in charge of me. Nobody is in charge of me. I am fully responsible for both the good and bad that happens to me.
I have blamed my bosses, colleagues, co-workers for constantly overlooking me for promotions and raises. I’ve had to shatter my ego, dig deep inside and humbly face the fact that perhaps I was not in the right field of work (which I chose in order to learn a lesson), or that I actually did not deserve that promotion because my skill is in another area altogether. I also had to face the fact that I was not promoting myself. Sometimes self-promotion could mean leaving a job that’s not right for you. I had to face the fact that once again, I was being a follower in choosing a line of work for its allure, social status, or money instead of what I needed – for the job to feed my soul. I made those choices. Me and only me.
I have picked myself apart physically, never thinking I was pretty enough, fit enough, charming enough, because I allowed myself to believe what the media’s version of all those descriptors are. In order to shatter my ego, I have had to ask myself why I surrendered my inner Goddess because of some arbitrary useless opinion of what a fashion magazine dictates is the accepted standard of beauty. I neglected my Divine Feminine. I was blind to what makes a person beautiful – which is their soul, not their hair, weight, clothes, or face. I relinquished my sight, not seeing my inner beauty, because I replaced my vision of it with someone else’s vision of how beauty looks.
I have stifled my words, opinions and thoughts for fear of how they would be accepted, or rejected. To shatter my ego, I had to ask myself why I believe that my words and thoughts are not valid. I had to ask myself what made me think beyond a shadow of a doubt, that someone else’s thoughts, words, and actions are more important than my own. I had to admit to myself that I prostituted my soul a few times and completely muffled my inner and outer voice in order to secure a regular paycheck. I did that. Me and only me. This is called taking responsibility for my own healing.
I have had horrible surprises, such as artistic collaborations, business partnerships, and friendships explode in my face because I refused or did not know that I have to listen to my intuition.
To shatter my ego, I have had to understand that I was not honoring that little (or not so little) voice inside that ignored gigantic red flags in all these situations. I had to look back with humility and ask myself why I did not instantly remove myself from an encounter where I was mistreated, attacked, or manipulated, just so that that bond would not disintegrate. I had to face the fact that I took on the other person’s issues instead of empowering them to take on their own issues. When I make a decision to ski a black diamond slope despite the warning sign which reads, “CAUTION – SKI AREA BOUNDARY – NO SKI PATROL OR AVALANCHE CONTROL BEYOND THIS POINT”, and I end up in the hospital in traction, I only have myself to blame. In order to traverse my path, I have to learn how navigate all terrains. That’s inner work.
I have been lost in a sea of brain fogs, disillusion, confusion, and depression because I did not believe that there is a higher Universal force which guides and protects me – if I make room for it to happen. In order to shatter my ego, I had to surrender control. I had to acknowledge my higher self and honor it. I had to trust that it knows better than anyone or anything, what I need in order to evolve and grow. I had to give back respect to my Self that knows that I was not born to be sick, sad, or helpless. I had to look to my own soul and spirit for answers, instead of looking for solutions outside of myself. And it was only after all of these awakenings that I arrived at a spiritual breakthrough and became an energy healer.
Namaste – I honor the spirit in you which is also in me.
Sharon